stress

I just found out I have this weird tendency to speak out loud when memorizing stuffs. Like, really saying it out louuuud!!!

Obviously I do it behind closed doors

And today I realized how much I've been slacking during lectures and tutorials.

Now my right arm & wrist feel really numb from writing the same thing over and over. I hate this kinda feeling, stupid barrier.

I will go offline in approximately 20 minutes.

After thursday I will run outta school screaming, "NO MORE EXAMS!!!!!!" Okay maybe I'll do it silently in my head.

Now I will enjoy my 20 minutes of freedom

No wait, 18 minutes already.

diminishing hope

Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight..

I woke up feeling unhappy and with a heavy heart. Thought it was all a dream but I guess its in memory lane now. I can be that kinda person when, you say things that you're not supposed to say to me and I'll screw you upside down real badly. I'm sorry.

Sometimes taking it all back won't make any difference.

I'm gonna stay away from all technologies for now and give my mind some peace and breathing space. Guess it'll do both you and me some good. If one doesn't back down, it won't ratify the problem in any way.

If you belong to somebody, ultimately they'll be yours.

Absence makes the heart fonder.

fireflies

Meet my new friend that I've just created in the afternoon from Kinder Joy,

Miss Loco

Hahahahahahaa.

I asked my younger brother just now,
"Bryan can you pass me that kinder surprise over there?"

He replied,
"No jiejie, it is called kinder joy, not kinder surprise!"

WOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i feel so pwned.
He's only primary 3 btw :)


Econs is killing me over and over,
1 more step and i'll reach my breaking point, Really.

friday, TGIF

Had extra microbiology class today and I woke up late!!!!!!!11

Arrived 20 minutes later to class..

I opened the door and stood infront of my chair, Miss Sze looked at me and said, "Hi!" I stoned for a second there and then I replied, "Oh haiiii!! Sorrrrrry!!"

Lessons were rather constructive in a way and I managed to revive my dead brain by a little, beginning to find microbio rather interesting mhm :)

Watched Year One at jurong point with sissie and I absolutely love the show!! Michael Cera is so cute and Jack Black's hilariouuuuuus. Brunch was at Fish and Co.!








Yumyum nomnomzzzz!!

While we were eating halfway this staff came to our table and said,

"Hi there, your chips is very little and here are more chips for you"

I looked at my sister and I'm like... "Err okay sure thanks!"

Chips = Fries!

That reminds me, today while I was in the train this couple came and sat infront of me. Since the guy was sitting directly infront its obvious he would have took at least 1 glance or look at me right? Well thats what I saw.

Then the overreactive girlfriend went to block his eyes

W-T-F!?!?!!??!

Okay I don't even wanna see you guys holding each other, planting sweet little kissy kisses on each other body parts or whatnot ok. Wow thats crazillllllly gross man!!!11

Bless me ;)

80 random things about me

1) I hate skinny girls who think they're fat

2) I hate skinny girls who keep emphasizing they're FAT (its obvious they wanna feel good whenever their friends say, "no you're not fat!" SICKOOOO)

3) I dislike it when I ask people, "You wanna eat?" and their reply is "No" (if you're really full then I guess its okay but if you say you wanna diet I will hit you really hard)

4) Hates anorexic people. And with eating disorders too

5) Hates bulimic people. Why vomit out food when you already paid for it? Waste of money, might as well do a good deed for second world countries right.

6) I know SOME people are borned with eating disorders ok. BUT SEEK TREATMENT MAN!

7) Used to be in TAF club, yah I mean obviously HAHAH for like 4 years

8) But I came out at secondary 2 YAY achievement man!

9) Secondary school life is filled with alot of dramas. REALLY ALOT

10) I achieved 179 for my PSLE (YES NORMAL ACADEMIC, & I'M PROUD OF IT) and so did my twin sister, which really surprised me cos we took the exams at 2 different locations

11) I have a twin sister, Grace Lee, she's older than me by 1 freaking minute!!

12) Technically I would have been the older sister if only my mom gave birth to us from her PP hehehe

13) Used to dress myself up gothic. Like drawing eyeliner on my upper and bottom part of my eye as if eyeliner was free

14) But I don't anymore cos people said I look very FIERCE.

15) I love guys with piercings, tattoos and plays the guitar (acoustic/electric)

16) I used to have 11 piercings! YES! 6 on my left and 5 on my right.

17) My mother scolded me like crazy in the end i took some out and currently I have 7 piercings

18) Likes having dinner as early as 4pm (SICKKKKKKKKKO! I believe digestion would be better in that way)

19) Bathes at unearthly timings like 11pm or 12pm. Sometimes as late as 2am!

20) I give statuses to my technology devices. (My ipod nano is babylove, laptop is husband, dslr is baby senior and my digi camera is baby junior)

21) I like wearing alot of "lingling longlong" on my right wrist. Like bands and such. Left wrist is strictly for watches!

22) Loves to fight like madddd and most of the time I don't behave like a girl.

23) I used to work at a dessert shop with my sister, from 10am to 10pm earning only 10 dollars a day!! (MADDDDDDD I KNOW!)

24) Hates getting off the train at the red line, from cityhall to jurong east

25) Because you really have no chance of getting out of the train when everybody from outside is pushing in to get a seat

26) I get very pissed because of this and when Im getting off the train, I will cling onto my bag and then I PUSHHHHH and ELBOW them reallllllly hard

27) This sucks cos I have to do this for the next 3 years of my life

28) I like wearing my white labcoat cos it makes me look really smart

29) Loves maggie mee like crazy, especially TOMYUM

30) I will go bald soon cos maggie mee contains high level of MSG and NaCl (sodium chloride) hahaha

31) I am proud of myself because I can name cool chemical compounds like.. Hexacarbonylcobalt (III) chloride and Pentaaquabromorhodium (IV) iodide

32) Potassium hexofluoroaluminate!! Muhahahh I'm the cool science kid you'll ever know

33) I like having blueblacks because I can press them and feel very shiok!

34) I'm not a sadist but i just like the feeling

35) I dont like it when guys go, "Hey joyce why today never go out with your boyfriend?"

36) Maybe its their way of asking if the girl is single or attached in an undirect way, subtle message man

37) Dislikes talking to people who speaks more profound english than me cos it makes me feel stupid.

38) I don't like mosquitoes cos they always bite me, not my friends but me. Maybe I have really delicious blood, yums :)

39) Loves wearing cute watches. I have a Transformers watch and a Chips More watch! The Chips More watch is so bloody cute, with chocolate chips flying on the strap!!

40) In secondary school I always carry my Amaths textbook in school, which is bloody huge.

41) People ask me why I don't wanna put it in my bag. I told them, "Very heavy ma!"

42) Actually I wanna show people I very smart cos i take Amaths HAHAH in-thing leh!

43) I like my fingernails to be painted in multicolours! Cos im really loud (Its currently pink and blue!!)

45) People whom I don't know adds me in msn don't have very long conversations with me cos very soon I will just [x] the msn chat

46) Not to be mean but I don't click with them well, most of them i suppose

47) When people wear yellow or red coloured tee I will always go, "A WALKING BANANA/ANGPAO!!!"

48) Its subjective!!!!!!! I don't have a problem hahha

49) A lesbian once asked me to be her gf in the past, I got really scared and i have never spoken to her since

50) I speak English when im in school and Chinese at home

51) I don't have the chinese accent when speaking English and vice versa, woohooo!

52) Whenever I see a pretty girl or a handsome guy looking at me, my heart will beat very fast

53) I'm straight, not a bi :D

54) Hate hate hate it whenever people go and lup their arms over my shoulder (putting their arms over my shoulder)

55) Cos my neck and shoulders will hurt, stupid dumbos.

56) Don't like it when girls go, "EEEEE DONT WALK IN THE SUN!!!"

57) What a pussy. Its just the sun, it won't kill you. Besides the sun will give you Vitamin D!! Sun makes our fats = Vitamin D. Good right free vitamins leh!

58) I think of love as painful, like realllllly *ouch*

59) Thats why I've been single for almost a year now!!

60) Loving my life, AT THE MOMENT ONLY

61) Always wanted to get inked but I know my friends sure disown me ):

62) I don't like it when people asks me about my results. Cos they sure expect me to ask them back about their results, and they'll say "I get A"

63) Hate it when I ask some people, "How did you do for your exams?" They'll say "Damn bad!!" Then I'll ask, "What are your grades?" Their reply, "Oh i have 6 As" You suck man step humble only

64) I do abs exercise before going to bed because I wanna have nice abs like Fergie :D

65) I wanna have long hair but I'll get really irritated and snip it off. Longest length I ever had was a tad bit over my breasts hehhe.

66) Dislikes pessimistic people to talk to me because it will only make me unhappy ):

67) I like taking artsy photos with my dslr

68) Admires people who can take artsy photos!!

69) Sometimes I am damn sarcastic. Like if you say I'm ugly I will reply, "So now what? Am i gonna die?"

70) I love Stars and I always dreamed of changing my name to Star. Hahaha Star Lee!!!

71) People say my chinese name is damn cute, but I don't like it ):

72) I treasure my family and bestfriends the most in the world

73) When I get hooked onto a song I will put it on repeat mode until I get really sick of it

74) I always envy people who wears spectacles cos it makes them look smart

75) For many years I tried to spoil my eyesight but its always 6/6 vision, which also means I still have perfect vision :) :D

76) I type abnormally fast, even jannah and jen said so hehehe

77) I sing alot at home, my father will then say, "Aiyo noise pollution leh" Basketttttt

78) When I have nothing to do at home I do air practices. Like doing right turning kick and punches

79) I don't put makeup when I go to school, and I keep telling people I got natural beauty. Sowwwie I no shamez teehee

80) I snack when I got nothing to do at home. My house is like a ntuc!!


Hahahaha.
I realized from points 1 to 6, I have been complaing about skinny girls.

Sorry to say but I'm not jealous of skinny girls, I freaking mean it. So disgusting, like bones living in a body just to support the shape of a human.

Not even nice to hug, major turnoff please
I don't even care if you're a size 2 or whatever you look more disgusting than my laosai (watery shit), period.

& those chopsticks legs ain't a pretty sight either :)

Its 0130 now and I have been having 3 exams in a row!
Time to spend the rest of the night with my laptop! I missed you (L)

3 more papers to go and then I'll be a free prisoner who just got a "get-outta-jail-card"!

GOOOOOODNIGHT LOVELIES

dusk till dawn

It may have been in bits and pieces, but I gave you the best of me.

mistakes

Me: How long will our holidays be?
Qy: Maybe.. Around 7 weeks?
Me: WHAT?!!? I thought it'll be 2 months
Qy: Okay what quite long

Me: But.. 1 week only got 4 days!!
Qy: Excuse me?!
Me: Oh shoot! I mean 1 week got 4 months
Me: Wait, I meant to say 1 month got 4 days
Qy: Is there something wrong with you joyce?
Me: *Burst out laughing*

What I meant to say was, 1 month has 4 weeks.
All that happened after the physical chemistry exam.

I think the paper's cursed.

the exams

I, JOYCE LEE, WILL MAKE IT THROUGH THE REMAINING 5 PAPERS!!!

Have decided that, being upset is a total waste of time and I'm not letting anything or anyone affect me anymore. So redundant, I believe I can find someone who can accept me and my past.

Hello to physical chemistry, inorganic chemistry, ifs, econs and microbiology!
Goodbye to matters of the heart.

fallen from grace

Woke up with a really bad headache. Should really try to develop a good sleeping habit and change my sleeping time. A rough night I've had, at least I was honest towards you. I am genuine and real. Perhaps I've made a huge mistake because no one gives a hoot about being honest anymore and ultimately, people will still judge.

Everybody has their dark times and i've moved away from it for almost a year now. People change, why can't you get that. During the journey home, with the earpiece plugged into my ipod, I immersed into deep thoughts. I decided since you can't come to a conclusion readily, its obvious you judged me.

Beyond shadow of doubt, I'm giving up.

Can you feel your heartbeat racing?

exams

MATHS FOR LIFE SCIENCES
IS TOMORROW!!!

Let the war beginz!!!

Removed my bandage in the afternoon and its still swollen.
SADDDDD

today i learnt..

About phrase diagram.

This is how I learn, by writing and drawing alot of times.

Just been to grandma's house and she give me this ginger kinda paste and smacked it onto my left foot, which is on my injury. Freaking hottttt!!! Then she bandaged it. Picture of it at my twitter!!

I hope the injury heals soon.
Because I can't do any kicks with my left foot. Would be really upset if I can't go for cca in this state.

If you guys don't know what happened to my foot, click here!

Maths, Physical chemistry, Inorganic chemistry, Ifs, Econs, Microbio.
Must... Work hard!!

Ate alot today. I guess this is how I vent my boredem, by eating alot.
Sure regret, but I think tomorrow I'm gonna go on a diet!!!

But..
I can't exercise.

Cos the injury-caused-by-the-threadmill is still there!!!
My parents said its not necessary to go and see a doctor.
Wait lah waitttt, wait until my bone is really broken then you know!!

Imagine, a threadmill falling on your foot from quite a height.
Pain ttm!!!

Shit lah.
Why am I feeling so many emotions now

I miss you but I don't wanna miss you.

toysRus d&d

Hello wello!
Last night was Toys"R"Us Dinner and Dance night!!!

Freaking off the hook please. Had lots of fun with my colleagues :D

Boss and gang made me drank alot of alcohol.
4 cups of orange vodka, 2 tequila shots, 1 martell, 1 gin tonic

(I don't normally drink. Actually its been 1year since my last drink ok (Y))

Won in a lucky draw, lucky number 117!! I was drinking with my friends when my someone was screaming, "JOYCE JOYCE YOU WON THE LUCKY DRAW!!!"

I was really shocked for a second there.
Heard the MC say, "Number 117, Joyce from Vivo"

And then I made my way to the centre of the club to shake hands with ERIC TUI and took a photo with him. So I won for myself a $100 Suntec city gift voucher! CRAZILY AWESOME OR WHAT!

19th outta 50 prizes, not bad huh. Marinah got a hamper. Rafi got the same prize as me and JJ got himself a $100 Paragon gift voucher! Lucky winners, hohoho.

Photosssssssss:D




The girls of TRU 4208 :D


JANNAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was mad excited when she screamed my name from across the road.

We were like talking and talking at the entrance of the club.
So cool right! My bestfriend works at United Square outlet and me at Vivocity outlet!!
I'm missing you now Jannah dear! :D


Ain Melvyn Farisha Me!!




CHANG SHILI!!!!!!!!
So freaking long since I last saw her at work!!
I'm surprised she knows my cca, my screen name and such.

I miss you chili!!!!
We will be cashiers on Christmas ok muhahaha


SIOKLUAN!!!!
MY FAVOURITE MANAGER :D


JJ = $100 paragon voucher
Joyce = $100 suntec voucher
Rafi = $100 suntec voucher



Vodka orange and gin tonic!


Love you all, TRU VIVO!! K not everyone is in the picture

More pictures @

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=148025&id=622010659&l=89da257230

Shili, Joanna and I drank and we went to visit the toliet alot of time!! At first we were alright, alive and kickin. Until we felt dizzy. Woa this was like the first time we got kinda drunk (Y) Crazily fun!!!!

Shili, JJ, Neelam and I were to Zouk afterwards and it was very boring. I guess it was because its Mambo Jambo night and the songs sucks. We didnt go to the dancefloor and instead, we went to bukit panjang to find shazwan and his friend.

Played and talked with Shili, JJ, Neelam, Ihsan, Shazwan, Batman and Faizal. Cabbed home, removed makeup and I went to bed to 5am in the morning.

What an awesome night!
I'm going back to work next month :D

YAYYYYY TO THE PINK UNIFORM!

i sing tonight

Leaves are on the ground, fall has come.
Blue skies turning grey, like my love.

I carry the things that remind me of you.
In loving memory of the one that was so true.

And you always will

great monday?

Woke up at 8am in the morning, I went to bathe and got changed into my formal wear. Took like 20 mins to do my hair and makeup then off to school I go!

People gave me weird stares after taking quick glances, which is kinda dissing because.. Poly students wearing formal wear is normal what!!! I see it all the time in the trains. Tsk! Or maybe I'm too pretty already hahahah.

So...
My group and I raided a tutorial room at level 6 and we started to do very unglam stuffs there like TAKING OFF OUR SHOES AND DO ALOT OF THINGS HAHAHAH.

I loveeeeeeee you girls :D



TELL ME I LOOK DAMN PRETTY AND SMART OK.
Well.. maybe just the smart part :D



I know its damn messy we're never neat hehehe.


Anyway love you guys, Jannah and Jen!!! :D



Okay so my course has 3 classes, fs0901, fs0902 and fs0903.
Since 10am to almost 1pm, fs0901 wasn't done with their presentation and we were damn pissed. Got even more worked up when they announced that our Economics presentation will be postponed to this Wednesday. *Hurls a million profanities*

So... We did take class pictures together!!
When I see everyone in their formal wear I was like, "wow-ing" all the way. Sooo not used to see my classmates in formal wear. They all look very pretty and handsome!! Hahaha I think we all look 5 to 10 years older with our formal wear :)


The 6 guys in fs0903






DA BLACK KIDZZZZZ


DA WHITE KIDZZZZZ
Don't you think white top and black skirt/pants will look like waiters and waitresses? HAHHAHAH wa funny shit.


And..
DA ODD COLOURS KIDZZZZZZ


FS0903!!!!!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Went for our industrial visit at a Yakult factory and it was fascinating!! REALLY. Learnt about:
1) There are 10 million bacteria in a yakult bottle
2) They sell around 60 billion bottles of yakult A DAY

And.. I can't remember. I know there are lactobacilius inside a yakult bottle and stuff. Then got patches here and there to absorb don't know what thing.

I was bugging Jannah and Jen during the talk and kept saying,

"Jannah Jen!! Wanna feel my hump?"

and

"Faster I give you 1 more chance, wanna touch my hump?"

Ahahaha damn funny I was laughing like nutZZZZZ!!! C:

Anyway my foot is really very swollen now. There's like this mini hill on my foot which is freaking disgusting. It hurts even if someone moves their finger over it. Daddy and momsy said there's no need to see a doctor. They said to give it a few days and see how it goes. I hope by then my foot doesn't need to be amputated.

Hopefully my foot will recover soon.
My dad said a threadmill falling onto my foot was a "FREAK ACCIDENT"

Wow, he made it sound soooo scary!!

unlucky or what?

If you guys haven't seen my facebook or twitter today..

THE THREADMILL FELL ONTO MY SHIN AND FOOT TODAY
At approximately 12pm in the afternoon, sucks to be me right.

My friends were coming over to my place and I wanted to tidy up the house abit.
So I went to fold the threadmill back in an upwards motion and unknowingly, it hit the table and then I stupidly let it fall or rather, I lost grip and..

*BAM!!!* onto my foot.

Imagine, something heavy like a threadmill lands on your foot at a 90 degrees position.

At first mommy was shocked and I was saying, "Its okay I'm alright" in a happy tone. I hopped back to my room and laid on my bed. I started cry soon after cos the pain was unbearable.

My shin and foot are badly bruised and injured now.
Pictures over at my twitter, might freak you guys. & sadly,

I have a formal presentation tomorrow and I am supposed to wear a skirt!!
Now... I'm thinking of changing it to pants or stick to wearing the skirt.

So.. Jannah Jen and Joan came over to do our economics project!







STRESSEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Okay I'm going to bathe now and I know its gonna hurt, ALOT!!
Tomorrow is my Economics presentation and after that we're going for an industrial visit to a Yakult factory! No cameras allowed though ): But I heard we'll be getting free bottles of Yakult! YAYYYYYY

Have a good week ahead you guys! Love.

no boundaries

FOOD CULTURE PAPER WAS HORRENDOUS OK!!

I sat in the lecture theatre playing with my pen and stared into blank space for half an hour before completing my half completed paper. Horrible I tell you! I can hear people complaining about the paper outside the lecture theatre..

Fyi the food culture paper is my examination paper, :O !!!!

Before the exams, I felt really sleepy during phychem tutorial lesson.
So I merely put my head on the table to get a quick break.

Mr Ong: Joyce are you okay?
Me: *Wakes up* Yeahyeah I'm just tired
Mr Ong: Tired? Okay go up to the board and do question 1
Me: HUH?! Are you serious?
Mr Ong: Of course!

Waaaaa I regretted please, cos I didn't do my homework hehehe.

After my exams I went to meet my bestie dog at IMM!!! Missed her like crazyyyy ♥

BY THE WAY
TODAY IS THE FIRST TIME I'VE HAD SUBWAY!!!!!
Pretty retarded to the max please, hold your laughters.





I love you my dear! I've had lots of fun with you today and I know our 5years plus friendship will never go to waste. Hope you're having fun over at singapore poly!! ♥

TGIF!
I'm so gonna wake up late on the weekends. Watching Up tomorrow at jurong point with family in the afternoon and I can't wait! Nachos, popcorns, sprite, iced lemon tea and cheesy hotdogs! Wow exciting.

Treasure.

hanging

Yes.. You heard it.
I think I'm on the verge of breaking down.

It won't be too long now.

I think I'm having moodswings, but I dont suffer from pms.

happier

As I was about to go out for school, my module rep texted and said lessons cancelled.
Walao! To think I could have slept an hour more, seriouslyyyy!!

1 hour of sleep makes a difference please!!

But on a happier note,



Good morning linda and thanks love!!
I will try to do well for it. Hahaha.

Okay off to school in half an hour's time!
Have a lovely day ahead guys :)

nil

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"

Hit me really hard today as I realized I've been wasting time for far too long. Its pretty much useless and we're just procrastinating, prolonging this mental pain that wasn't meant to be there in the first place. Forever my friend, forever and always (:

"But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away"

bottle tree

Finally I'm done editting pictures and stuff. School will begin again tomorrow and I'm really dreading it cos staying home really makes me happy all over :)

Sem. exams are up in a few weeks time and I haven't started my revision! This is bad.
Will start soon, I hope :D

So today family and I went to Bottle Tree @ Sembawang if I'm not wrong for prawn fishing, dinner and then a fish spa. Hahahaha ok the fish spa was like, freaking itchy and I was screaming and laughing my ass off. Its like alot of tiny fingers tickling at the soles and around your feet. Woa totally hilarious!! & unforgettable.

Lazy to caption my photos haha.

















Thats not my feet kthx thats my mama's HAHAH



P/s: You've been a great company for me these past few days & I couldn't ask for anything better, xoxox.