Nothing is forever, and forever is over.

Lies. Unfaithfulness. Flirt. Infidelity.

I still can't forgive, yet I still can't forget. Trying, yet surely I think I can do it.

Give it some time. Everything will be just alright, with a capital A.

Love is just so complicated. With such temptations, there's always bound to be cases of unfaithfulness. Yeah, the one thing I can't stand is unfaithfulness. Followed by lies, and then flirt.

What I've learnt? Is never to get so involved and put your all in it. The more you do, the bigger the hole you're digging, and then when something screws up and you can't get out of the hole and it'll take forever and countless of efforts to get yourself out of the seemingly shallow hole.

The memories I'll hold, but nothing is ever gonna change anymore cause the road ends here.

My mighty hamster!

You are such a great companion.

I know people always think hamsters are stupid and can't feel a thing for their owners but I beg to differ. He makes me happy, the way he eats, the way he sleeps and the way he runs around. It all makes me very happy.

I think he loves me too. He's such a weird hamster. Cause whenever I touch him and start pat him, he starts falling asleep. Like all the time! So amazing.

I love you so much fat fat. Please don't ever leave me :(

March 2013 bellabox!

So after hearing lots of talk about BellaBox from friends and online, I decided to sign up for it! I also saw that they've increased the price from $15 to $19.95 recently as well? It's quite pricely lah, come to think of it. The box is pre-packed and you don't know whether you'll like it anot. So hopefully I'll like my future boxes :D

What happened was last week when I was surfing fb, I saw an ad stating a discount of $10 off original price!! That's when I decided to give bellabox a try.

And also, I'm the kind of girl that NEVER uses any kind of facial/hair/skin etc etc products. I don't wear make-up (unless it's some important or formal events which is very rare also lah), have any regime and stuff like that so I suppose having these sample products will help me widen my knowledge about beauty products? Heeeheeee.

So this is my March 2013 Spring in your Step bellabox!

To be honest I don't really like the lemongrass shower gel. It was stated "Back by popular demand" on the description card by the way. But the packaging and all looks like some shower gel from a hotel? Haha. And also it looks like a cheap aroma oil bottle I've seen in Bali few months back.

However, I'm pretty happy with the Wonderstruck perfume. I am the kind of person that'll only splurge on nice smelling perfume and the sample given was rather generous! Roll-on kind somemore, I can just throw it into my bag and use whenever needed. Oh, I'm liking the lip butter as well. No idea what brand is it, but I think it has a nice and cool packaging.

As for the other 2 samples from Dr Ci, no idea what brand is that cause I'm not some beauty guru, will try them out and hopefully I'll like them!

Not this time.

FTS. I DON'T DESERVE TO SUFFER ALL THIS SHIT FROM YOU ALL

Oh wow, thank you world for pulling such a trick on me. As if you didn't make me suffer enough, now you're piling more shit on me.

You know what, the fucking world is a bloody huge joke. You be nice and then karma becomes stupid and falls on the wrong person, ie. yours truly.

All my life I've been nothing but filial, faithful, stay on the right track, didn't do anything illegal/morally wrong/betray anyone etc. I'm a clean, not crumpled white sheet of paper. It just really sucks to see things going so well for people who done so much wrong.

You know what, one day I'll just crack and break. Wait till when I'm stable with my whole life in the future, don't come crawling and asking me for help.

Cause you were never there when I needed you (all).

Oh and by the way..

Year 2 term 2 has just started. Time for another hectic 3 months!!!

Let's goooooooo~

Draco's birthday

Hammy taking a sandbath & massage

This is my little fatty taking a sandbath!!


And this is my little fatty enjoying his massage HAHAH.
You can see even both his arms are spread out heh.

Truth is..

As the people I love around me gets older, their priorities change. They view things differently now, even the term "love" is different. We used to say we love and hug each other all the time, now you're constantly hugging another, saying you love them. Not to me anymore.

Here I am, still living and seemingly stuck in the past and making believe that we're still like before, like really close sisters.

It finally dawned upon me, sometimes kinship just won't matter as much as 20 years ago.

It's a sign I should have seen long ago. Those efforts I've put in, they're all unrequited. Those dreams, thoughts, and in hopes of you treating me a little better, I'm not asking for a lot, just treat me a little better, why is it so hard?

I really should get a move on, that we're moving forward. We no longer tell secrets and our deepest feelings to each other, lies have overtaken the truth, and..... The people that matters to you have surpassed us all.

Really thought we can be forever, now I guess we've all grown up. I should let go of the fact you're still my 姐姐, the one I can go out with and have all the fun we've ever imagined. Now I know someone has taken up the position.

I'd understand. I'm sorry for being such a thorn in your flesh, but I'll still love you.. But from a distance.

I'll still be your dearest 妹妹.. Just that I'm hidden and kept away from your life. Sincere apologies for all the embarrassment caused..

Uploaded 2 new videos of my little squeaky!!

So,
My year 2 term 1 is over!!

Just awaiting my results, hopefully I didn't do too bad?

Was really irritated with my appetite cause it was really horrible during the exams period. And I've lost some weight as well la heehee. But I'm the kind that eats alot so.... Yeah. And immediately after my last paper I got back my appetite so miraculously!!!

So now my short term break starts.. Have a few homework here and there though so I wouldn't really consider it to be my holidays.


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Past few weeks I've realized my hamster always falls asleep when I'm scratching his sides and buttocks. And today my friend told me there's something called hamster massages?!?! So actually I've been massaging him la no wonder he always sleeps when I scratch and rub his sides.

Here's a picture of my cute sleeping baby to end my entry. Have an awesome week y'all!