& that's a promise to myself I'm gonna keep.
Life goes on, I'll not look back anymore.
I'm better than alright.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Sunday, December 30, 2012
Sick fatty :(
My dear baby 胖胖 fell sick :(
About 3 months back, I went to the vet to treat his abscess that grew on his eyelid (SIGH!) which cost alot for his surgery. But thats fine.. However its sad that it grew back after like a month or so... :(
And recently I was stroking fatty and suddenly I felt rough patches, I didn't think much of it cause I thought it was his bones or something HAHAHA -.- Until like 2 days back I was carrying him to the balcony in the morning then to my horror,
THERE WERE BLEEDING WOUNDS ON HIS HEAD AND THE BACK OF HIS NECK AREA AND BODY!!!!!!
4 wounds in total. Scared the shit out of me. Furthermore I was getting ready to head out for school.
Rushed him to the vet after school, which I feel was the longest 6 hrs ever, and the vet diagnosed him with fungal skin infection? Think it has got nothing to do with fleas and mites (thankfully...)
I feel so heartbroken!!!! WHO WON'T SEE THESE WOUNDS AND FEEL SAD?!?!?!
He cannot stop picking on his scabs then it'll start bleeding all over again. Dammit.... :(
The vet gave me this 2 meds, antibiotics and one for the treatment for fungal infections + 1 soap solution to bathe him.
It was so difficult making fatty drink from the syringe. At times if I'm lucky, fatty will sit quietly on my hand and then drink out of the syringe like a little baby, awwwww... ❤
And at times he will keep running away and refuses to drink his medicines. Gosh...
Tried bathing him yesterday and when his fur was wet, I could see so clearly where his wounds were and how bad it is. *tears heart into pieces*
#prayforfatty
Really can't wait for baby to be better. Then I can bring him to play and run around!! :)
I know some people were like telling me, "WHAT?!? HAMSTERS ARE SO CHEAP!! You spent like almost $200 on him just for medications, excluding his food, toys and cage and waste money and all. You can easily buy new hamster what."
The feeling I have for him is kinda... Like a mom taking care of her child. I know right like I'm only so young, how would I know how a mom cares for her child? My mom cares for me so much, I feel like I'm just doing the same for fatty. Afterall, that's a life we're talking about.
About 3 months back, I went to the vet to treat his abscess that grew on his eyelid (SIGH!) which cost alot for his surgery. But thats fine.. However its sad that it grew back after like a month or so... :(
And recently I was stroking fatty and suddenly I felt rough patches, I didn't think much of it cause I thought it was his bones or something HAHAHA -.- Until like 2 days back I was carrying him to the balcony in the morning then to my horror,
THERE WERE BLEEDING WOUNDS ON HIS HEAD AND THE BACK OF HIS NECK AREA AND BODY!!!!!!
4 wounds in total. Scared the shit out of me. Furthermore I was getting ready to head out for school.
Rushed him to the vet after school, which I feel was the longest 6 hrs ever, and the vet diagnosed him with fungal skin infection? Think it has got nothing to do with fleas and mites (thankfully...)
He cannot stop picking on his scabs then it'll start bleeding all over again. Dammit.... :(
The vet gave me this 2 meds, antibiotics and one for the treatment for fungal infections + 1 soap solution to bathe him.
It was so difficult making fatty drink from the syringe. At times if I'm lucky, fatty will sit quietly on my hand and then drink out of the syringe like a little baby, awwwww... ❤
And at times he will keep running away and refuses to drink his medicines. Gosh...
Tried bathing him yesterday and when his fur was wet, I could see so clearly where his wounds were and how bad it is. *tears heart into pieces*
Really can't wait for baby to be better. Then I can bring him to play and run around!! :)
I know some people were like telling me, "WHAT?!? HAMSTERS ARE SO CHEAP!! You spent like almost $200 on him just for medications, excluding his food, toys and cage and waste money and all. You can easily buy new hamster what."
The feeling I have for him is kinda... Like a mom taking care of her child. I know right like I'm only so young, how would I know how a mom cares for her child? My mom cares for me so much, I feel like I'm just doing the same for fatty. Afterall, that's a life we're talking about.
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Bleh. Whatzup with my appetite?!
Yesterday I had a charsiew bun for breakf. And had momsy's homecooked food for dinner.
Today I had 3 oreos for breakf, 2 slices of turkey + cheese bread for late lunch and for dinner I had a few pieces of shihlin chicken.
Wondering what ima have for tomorrow...
Hopefully my appetite gets better! :)
Yesterday I had a charsiew bun for breakf. And had momsy's homecooked food for dinner.
Today I had 3 oreos for breakf, 2 slices of turkey + cheese bread for late lunch and for dinner I had a few pieces of shihlin chicken.
Wondering what ima have for tomorrow...
Hopefully my appetite gets better! :)
Monday, December 24, 2012
A letter to my ex
I'm an introvert person... Since young. I dislike the idea of going out and would rather stay home. I like watching tv, doing stuffs, using my laptop and just laying around in the house. The idea of making new friends or meeting new people terrifies the crap out of me and I can't really confide in anyone other than my boyfriend, family and some close friends I have.
Well, I'm gonna have to cross out the "boyfriend" now.
2 years and 3 months.. Oh what a wonderful long journey it has been.
Do you know, you've always been the first I call whenever I needed someone to talk to?
Do you know, you've always been the one I feel so comfortable with?
Well, things have started to change after us being together for a year. We quarreled, had been on and off a few times and the trust I had for you eventually went downhill after a few major incidents that tested our faithfulness towards each other. Yeah.. You told me you do not wanna meet me the following day after I asked if we could go out (like after not seeing you for almost a week) and you said you can't cause you had so many things to do so I just said okay. Instead.. You went out drinking until the wee hours, even when I asked you not to go, you did anyway. I understand now, I can't even be compared to your friends, ha ha ha..
You once told me, I was first. Followed by family, career and friends. I told you, "Please don't put me infront of your family." You protested and stood to your ground saying, "No, you are always number 1 in my life." Things changed, people changed. My level of tolerance towards you gradually faded and I get short-fused many times. I can't blame you if you would rather meet your friends instead of me, your ex-girlfriend. Even when I told you, "If you go and meet them, I would not want to be with you anymore." Unfortunately, you chose not to be with me. Thank you.
I wouldn't blame it all on you. Who would wanna be with someone like me? I told you before when we aren't together yet. I said, "You wouldn't wanna be with someone like me, I don't make a good girlfriend and I get angry and jealous really easily." You said you didn't mind and still wanna go against all odds. I was feeling skeptical. I admit my ego is high, I refuse to say sorry easily. I've treated you like shit. You can put the blame on me.
It was great having you around my life, major life events like being with me throughout my poly life, and
you were there for me, cheering me on and encouraging me when I just embarked on my uni life. You were really being very supportive of me, I feel so awful thinking, you could have deserved a better girl. You said, you wouldn't want anybody in your life.
I guess we are all tired now. But then again it has really been great having you. I'm just starting week 4 of my uni life and have 2 years to go and you've just started your career, so I guess we all have something to occupy our minds until we can get over this relationship (I can't say the same for you). I don't know if you feel sad, but I can tell you are already having new girl-friends into your life and you're constantly out until the AM's with your dear friends. So I think you might be happier now, I know it.
Thank you for partaking and embarking this journey together with me. And now we've come to a closure and things are not working out as we've wanted to. I guess.. We're still young and we still have a long way to go. I know its silly where you've included me into your future life and marriage proposal, where you've planned the amount of money to save, where we will live in the future, and that you want a son first then a daughter and stuff.. I know that... You can definitely find someone to fit into your dream girl's shoes more perfectly than I do.
I thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
& I wish you.. Happiness.
Well, I'm gonna have to cross out the "boyfriend" now.
2 years and 3 months.. Oh what a wonderful long journey it has been.
Do you know, you've always been the first I call whenever I needed someone to talk to?
Do you know, you've always been the one I feel so comfortable with?
Well, things have started to change after us being together for a year. We quarreled, had been on and off a few times and the trust I had for you eventually went downhill after a few major incidents that tested our faithfulness towards each other. Yeah.. You told me you do not wanna meet me the following day after I asked if we could go out (like after not seeing you for almost a week) and you said you can't cause you had so many things to do so I just said okay. Instead.. You went out drinking until the wee hours, even when I asked you not to go, you did anyway. I understand now, I can't even be compared to your friends, ha ha ha..
You once told me, I was first. Followed by family, career and friends. I told you, "Please don't put me infront of your family." You protested and stood to your ground saying, "No, you are always number 1 in my life." Things changed, people changed. My level of tolerance towards you gradually faded and I get short-fused many times. I can't blame you if you would rather meet your friends instead of me, your ex-girlfriend. Even when I told you, "If you go and meet them, I would not want to be with you anymore." Unfortunately, you chose not to be with me. Thank you.
I wouldn't blame it all on you. Who would wanna be with someone like me? I told you before when we aren't together yet. I said, "You wouldn't wanna be with someone like me, I don't make a good girlfriend and I get angry and jealous really easily." You said you didn't mind and still wanna go against all odds. I was feeling skeptical. I admit my ego is high, I refuse to say sorry easily. I've treated you like shit. You can put the blame on me.
It was great having you around my life, major life events like being with me throughout my poly life, and
you were there for me, cheering me on and encouraging me when I just embarked on my uni life. You were really being very supportive of me, I feel so awful thinking, you could have deserved a better girl. You said, you wouldn't want anybody in your life.
I guess we are all tired now. But then again it has really been great having you. I'm just starting week 4 of my uni life and have 2 years to go and you've just started your career, so I guess we all have something to occupy our minds until we can get over this relationship (I can't say the same for you). I don't know if you feel sad, but I can tell you are already having new girl-friends into your life and you're constantly out until the AM's with your dear friends. So I think you might be happier now, I know it.
Thank you for partaking and embarking this journey together with me. And now we've come to a closure and things are not working out as we've wanted to. I guess.. We're still young and we still have a long way to go. I know its silly where you've included me into your future life and marriage proposal, where you've planned the amount of money to save, where we will live in the future, and that you want a son first then a daughter and stuff.. I know that... You can definitely find someone to fit into your dream girl's shoes more perfectly than I do.
I thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
& I wish you.. Happiness.
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Am I doing this wrong?
Today I felt so lost in class, I got lost in the midst of all the lab discussion and what the teacher was talking about.
I felt even more panicky when every single goddamn person knows what the teacher was talking about and it's like I'm the only person who doesn't know any shit.
Then I really questioned myself,
"Did I come to the wrong course?"
I know every single one of my classmates either started from the basic year 1 in the bachelor program or they have a biotechnology background throughout their 3 years poly life. Me? Sure.. I got awarded an exemption of 1 year but I have only a background in food science. HA.. Food science vs biotechnology, now I'm really questioning myself.
I'm trying so hard to keep up. It's week 3 of classes and already I'm feeling the pressure, what the fuckery is this shit?!?! Trying to keep my cool.. Keep calm.
Hopefully everything will turn out okay.... If not.....
Major *SIGH*
Feeling like a hugeeeeee loser.
I felt even more panicky when every single goddamn person knows what the teacher was talking about and it's like I'm the only person who doesn't know any shit.
Then I really questioned myself,
"Did I come to the wrong course?"
I know every single one of my classmates either started from the basic year 1 in the bachelor program or they have a biotechnology background throughout their 3 years poly life. Me? Sure.. I got awarded an exemption of 1 year but I have only a background in food science. HA.. Food science vs biotechnology, now I'm really questioning myself.
I'm trying so hard to keep up. It's week 3 of classes and already I'm feeling the pressure, what the fuckery is this shit?!?! Trying to keep my cool.. Keep calm.
Hopefully everything will turn out okay.... If not.....
Major *SIGH*
Feeling like a hugeeeeee loser.
Friday, December 14, 2012
Monday, December 10, 2012
Unbelievable world.
Wow.... Just a big fucking WOW.
You're unbelievable really. First you pulled me down, even lower than a bottomless pit. Oh right, you're a local university graduate and here I am taking a D/L degree. You went to a junior college and I went to a polytechnic. You're way up higher than heaven and I'm way down lower than hell. Yeah, my school is like a holiday chalet. Everyday maximum 3 hours only, some days don't even need to go school.
I've tolerated. I had enough. You're crossed the line. Yet now you wanna be a fucking idiot and yell like an insane person from an asylum because of a small issue. Thanks for calling and yelling all this colourful words, certainly made my day even better. Yes, I don't really forgive people unless they know they're in the wrong and apologizes. You're really one of a kind, kudos! Without showing some signs of being apologetic, you expect people to forgive you. ha ha the world has finally cracked..
I should probably not exist at all. How would you feel if you know I've committed suicide? And I can't talk back to you or you'll never hear or see me ever again..
Maybe then you'll start regretting.. But I'll probably be gone by then.
You're unbelievable really. First you pulled me down, even lower than a bottomless pit. Oh right, you're a local university graduate and here I am taking a D/L degree. You went to a junior college and I went to a polytechnic. You're way up higher than heaven and I'm way down lower than hell. Yeah, my school is like a holiday chalet. Everyday maximum 3 hours only, some days don't even need to go school.
I've tolerated. I had enough. You're crossed the line. Yet now you wanna be a fucking idiot and yell like an insane person from an asylum because of a small issue. Thanks for calling and yelling all this colourful words, certainly made my day even better. Yes, I don't really forgive people unless they know they're in the wrong and apologizes. You're really one of a kind, kudos! Without showing some signs of being apologetic, you expect people to forgive you. ha ha the world has finally cracked..
I should probably not exist at all. How would you feel if you know I've committed suicide? And I can't talk back to you or you'll never hear or see me ever again..
Maybe then you'll start regretting.. But I'll probably be gone by then.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
DIY aztec prints on my iPhone casing!
So..... How does it look?! Sudden urge to do this aztec tribal print on my old red plain iPhone casing after I saw my friend did hers on instagram. I drew this at 2AM!!! Whatttt hahaha I'm not a good drawer btw.. I suck at drawing stuff.
Anyway I was really frustrated cause I left it to air dry after using a blow dryer for a day and it's still stained with black ink if I touch it!!! So I decided to put nail varnish after googling all the "how to's". While trying to apply nail varish, it got A LITTLE smudged!!! Ugh *smacks forehead*. I really cannot make it for artsy stuff.
I love the iPhone casing design btw hahahah. Do you?
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Home. Bag.
Sunday love :)
I'm not that kinda child that always gets to eat homecooked meals every single day. I'm always so happy whenever mom decides to cook on weekends. Thanks mommy, the best mom and cook ever :)
Otah, ngoh hiang, caipo fried egg, vegetables, salmon, tomato prawns
Clockwise, then centre.
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Latest addition, Black and Ox Red Kanken.
Heeeeeeeeeee, happy happy girl :D
I'm not that kinda child that always gets to eat homecooked meals every single day. I'm always so happy whenever mom decides to cook on weekends. Thanks mommy, the best mom and cook ever :)
Otah, ngoh hiang, caipo fried egg, vegetables, salmon, tomato prawns
Clockwise, then centre.
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I HAZ 2 KANKEN BAGZZZZ!!!
Latest addition, Black and Ox Red Kanken.
Heeeeeeeeeee, happy happy girl :D
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