Dear Sniffles,
Have I ever told you how much I love you? And how much you make me so happy, always?
With your constant funny habits and movements, I can't help but to laugh and smile so brightly in my heart. You make me so happy, you make me feel like my troubles are just some peanuts I could just crush them when I clench my fist.
When I first got you, I squealed in delight cause you're the most precious little hammy I've ever set eyes upon. All I wanna do is give you the best and my all. I want you to lead a happy, healthy life. You make me forget my problems whenever I held you. It's as if you have special powers.
Hey, what happened to you last night? You look listlessness and real tired? It was past midnight. I got worried and wanted to accompany you to check if things are alright. I forgo my studying for exams just to ensure you are alright. You have a some soft stools at your bum, what happened? All I wanna do is for you to be well. I took you out and laid you down on my chest. You laid there quietly with your eyes half opened as I stroked your furry fur and talked about how you cannot leave me because I want you to be here with me, through my hardest times.
You cannot leave me.
You laid there so quietly on my chest, at 2am in the morning. I feel so complete.
I woke up in the morning the next day, feeling so worried yet excited to see your little face but there you were, sleeping in your little hamhead hideout. I looked intensely for a minute, wondering why isn't there signs of breathing. My sister tried picking up the hideout and shook it gently. No, still no movements. I called out for you, still being in denial about the passing of you. It cannot be. It's too soon.
You passed away.
By right your real age would have been 1 year and 3 months. But counting the date when I first got you, your birthday will be next Saturday, the day you will turn 1. I was looking forward to celebrate your birthday with little cakes and party hats, with the entire family singing "Happy Birthday" to you and we will have presents and you'll rip the wrapping papers, with the family. We had a deal to celebrate birthdays together and you will wait for the day I graduate from university. We've been through so much yet you left.
Maybe last night you were really tired and had to go, but you mustered your every last bit of energy just to lay down with me for 1 last time. It had to be. I know you love me like how I love you. You're forever my little baby, I love you so much.
I miss you already.. Too much.
The times you rush to eat from your food bowl whenever I topped up your bowl. When you squeezed into little tight corners to sleep and I'll be snapping pictures of you. Whenever you jump or climb to the second storey, it was so funny, you were like a gymnast. And when you frantically tried to climb onto my hand cause you hate that small plastic box where I place you in because I was washing your cage/tank. Because.. For you I will do anything just to make you happy.
Wishing you will be happy and eating to your fullest in hamster heaven. I believe you are looking down at me, thanking me. I wanna thank you instead, for giving me the best time ever since you came into my life.
Always have, always will,
always and forever.
In loving memory of Sniffles,
June 2012 - May 2013
Your loving owner,
Joyce
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