Got to know you true intentions. I'm glad, glad I didn't fall into your trap.
3 more days to the start of my so called, full time job.
Mixed feelings :\
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Smells like trouble brewing.
So, now what's that supposed to mean?
We all live in a world where we can't differentiate between a need and a want.
We all live in a world where we can't differentiate between a need and a want.
If everyone knew your story I think people will finally see you in a different light.
Omfg?!?!?
You're srsly the most heartless fucker that takes advantage of everybody close to you. Never had I come across someone so selfish and fucked up like you?!?
Let me emphasize on SELFISH ok fuck. You let the people around you suffer, suck all the advantages beneficial for you out of them then use it to your own good. And when you're done playing with them and they asks you politely for help you turn them away and shoot them in the face. how fucked up is that?
WHY IS ANYBODY IN THE WORLD EVEN LIKE THAT?!
I really wish you were gone... For good.
You're srsly the most heartless fucker that takes advantage of everybody close to you. Never had I come across someone so selfish and fucked up like you?!?
Let me emphasize on SELFISH ok fuck. You let the people around you suffer, suck all the advantages beneficial for you out of them then use it to your own good. And when you're done playing with them and they asks you politely for help you turn them away and shoot them in the face. how fucked up is that?
WHY IS ANYBODY IN THE WORLD EVEN LIKE THAT?!
I really wish you were gone... For good.
Bazinga!
Ahahahaah
Love Sheldon Cooper to the max!
Still doing fine, gonna start my so called real full time job soon. Although its only for 8 months but still excited~
8 more days.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Live. Love. Life
Found myself dialing those once so familiar numerical digits and when you picked up the phone, my mind went blank. Had a chat.... Well I guessed we still miss each other and we can't adjust our lifestyle just yet. Places we've been and what we've done together there, I guess it just makes us all sad just by thinking those have now been long gone memories.
We're all afraid, we can all hide it but... It is killing us.
Perhaps time will eventually tell.
But in the meantime, everyday I try my best to be happy. Even though I sound really sad here but blogs can be deceiving? HAH.
Onto life, I've got a job, not that I don't in the past, I do, just that this job pays like 4 digits sum. How exciting is that? Guess I'm gonna take a break from all the science QA QC job scope and work something else and at the same time taking a break from this past 3 years of studying :) gonna start in April, really anxious but I hope it'll go smoothly.
Fingers crossed.
"Joyce, please stay cheery"
Yes I shall. And that's a promise.
We're all afraid, we can all hide it but... It is killing us.
Perhaps time will eventually tell.
But in the meantime, everyday I try my best to be happy. Even though I sound really sad here but blogs can be deceiving? HAH.
Onto life, I've got a job, not that I don't in the past, I do, just that this job pays like 4 digits sum. How exciting is that? Guess I'm gonna take a break from all the science QA QC job scope and work something else and at the same time taking a break from this past 3 years of studying :) gonna start in April, really anxious but I hope it'll go smoothly.
Fingers crossed.
"Joyce, please stay cheery"
Yes I shall. And that's a promise.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
最暖的胸口
我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了
想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了
我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔
我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Slowly but gradually.
This morning I woke up and the first thing I thought to myself was,
"It's okay to lose some people that matters so much to me. At least I know I wasn't the first to give up and let go."
A week now.
Slowly but gradually, I'm learning how to deal with all this emptiness inside of me.
The thing about having someone in your life, telling him about every single small thing and having him to rely on, suddenly gone like that is quite a hard thing to cope with but I learn.
"It's okay to lose some people that matters so much to me. At least I know I wasn't the first to give up and let go."
A week now.
Slowly but gradually, I'm learning how to deal with all this emptiness inside of me.
The thing about having someone in your life, telling him about every single small thing and having him to rely on, suddenly gone like that is quite a hard thing to cope with but I learn.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Sunday, March 11, 2012
What if our love never went away?
I'll never forget....
The way you kiss my forehead before going home.
The way you ensured that you massaged my feet, shoulders and legs everytime we meet so that I'll feel better.
The way you kept shouting "hello baby" infront of our friends when you came with the van after work.
The way you kept calling me fatty and a pig when I sleep until late in the morning.
The way you love to say, "faster hold my hand la later you get lost" whenever we're in a crowded place.
The way you always give me the kfc chicken skins cos you know I love to eat them.
The way where we laid down on our beds and you fall asleep in a split second and I'll secretly plant kisses of you and record them down in a video and showing you after.
The way you showed me your angry faces whenever I tried to eat my favorite tomyam but I was sick.
The way you'll talk nonstop about the things you love.
The way you'll randomly popped outside my lecture theaters or outside my fyp lab to give me my favorite purple yakult.
The way you get jealous whenever im working with 2 guys and no girls.
The way you hug me and then cracking my back after, cos I guess I have back problems.
The way you will sometimes come my house when I got angry with you over the phone or SMS.
The way you say things like, "u go take polaroid with the muscle guy la" whenever we walk past A&F
The way you always sneakingly tried to board the same bus as me when I said you needn't send me home.
The way I laid into your arms when I get really tired in the bus, it is really comfortable.
The way I can pull you into any retail shops without you complaining.
The way you'll say things like, "you better buy this top I don't care. Today don't buy don't go home"
Well I guess things have changed. Probably we grow older and decided we want other stuffs now. We argue about stuffs and I guess that incident that happened 3 days ago really was the last straw, huh? You refused to reply my texts, my calls and you even resort to turning off your phone. Well I've heard you've been going drinking and clubbing. Then... I guess you're really trying your best to move on. However all I wanted is to know if you wanna move on or not. Since you don't say anything and refuse to face me, then I guess it's over. You've shown no signs of resistance and a fighting chance for us.
You're amazing, the best boyfriend I ever had. But it's all over. You're just afraid of facing me, the choices infront of you and the truth.
I'm not sorry it's over.
I wish you all the best.
The way you kiss my forehead before going home.
The way you ensured that you massaged my feet, shoulders and legs everytime we meet so that I'll feel better.
The way you kept shouting "hello baby" infront of our friends when you came with the van after work.
The way you kept calling me fatty and a pig when I sleep until late in the morning.
The way you love to say, "faster hold my hand la later you get lost" whenever we're in a crowded place.
The way you always give me the kfc chicken skins cos you know I love to eat them.
The way where we laid down on our beds and you fall asleep in a split second and I'll secretly plant kisses of you and record them down in a video and showing you after.
The way you showed me your angry faces whenever I tried to eat my favorite tomyam but I was sick.
The way you'll talk nonstop about the things you love.
The way you'll randomly popped outside my lecture theaters or outside my fyp lab to give me my favorite purple yakult.
The way you get jealous whenever im working with 2 guys and no girls.
The way you hug me and then cracking my back after, cos I guess I have back problems.
The way you will sometimes come my house when I got angry with you over the phone or SMS.
The way you say things like, "u go take polaroid with the muscle guy la" whenever we walk past A&F
The way you always sneakingly tried to board the same bus as me when I said you needn't send me home.
The way I laid into your arms when I get really tired in the bus, it is really comfortable.
The way I can pull you into any retail shops without you complaining.
The way you'll say things like, "you better buy this top I don't care. Today don't buy don't go home"
Well I guess things have changed. Probably we grow older and decided we want other stuffs now. We argue about stuffs and I guess that incident that happened 3 days ago really was the last straw, huh? You refused to reply my texts, my calls and you even resort to turning off your phone. Well I've heard you've been going drinking and clubbing. Then... I guess you're really trying your best to move on. However all I wanted is to know if you wanna move on or not. Since you don't say anything and refuse to face me, then I guess it's over. You've shown no signs of resistance and a fighting chance for us.
You're amazing, the best boyfriend I ever had. But it's all over. You're just afraid of facing me, the choices infront of you and the truth.
I'm not sorry it's over.
I wish you all the best.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
A piece of my mind. There are limits.
I hope you fail in everything you do. Because all you do is rely on "pulling strings" and ass kissing to smoke through your education. You're no better than a loser and cheater. You say things like "aiyah teacher like me what, he wanna help me. Get cert can already nothing else matters" because of your incapabilities and stupidness and laziness that caused you to be who you are today so don't blame it on me. Explain how are my results so much better then? You think you're so fuckin mature but oh please, you're cracking me up. Despite your not so well off background I still learnt to accept. I'm better off than you yet you're picking things on me and saying nonsensical things that you're so much more superior than me. oh please.
You know what, you think you're so much better off without me then go ahead, I'd like to see you try. With a high possibility of you falling so hard on your back. HA. You say people can't tolerate me, well lets see how many people CAN ACTUALLY tolerate your fuckin loserish behavior when they know the whole fuckin story. Don't act as if what you did was so heroic and an undying act. Excuse me people will probably look down on you, not that people don't look down on you now, it's adding on more loser.
Deserving so much better, really do.
You know what, you think you're so much better off without me then go ahead, I'd like to see you try. With a high possibility of you falling so hard on your back. HA. You say people can't tolerate me, well lets see how many people CAN ACTUALLY tolerate your fuckin loserish behavior when they know the whole fuckin story. Don't act as if what you did was so heroic and an undying act. Excuse me people will probably look down on you, not that people don't look down on you now, it's adding on more loser.
Deserving so much better, really do.
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