Crushed, Devasted.
Doubt you wouldnt know about how i feel now and you definitely know nuts about me. you're always portaying me as being hot-tempered and angry all the time why cant you get the fact that im fucking depressed over this stupid relationship!? sometimes i really had enough sometimes i just cant bare to leave this longest r/s of mine and i hate this "wanting to leave but not leaving" kinda feeling. you regret, but you detest. I hate how this is going you kept telling me no more fuckshit quarrels wow false hopes high, really high.

even the best falls down sometime.

if i had continue disregarding & not trust you i doubt i'd ever love you as much as i do now. i'd never thought this would last till this very day & i thought to myself, just give it a few months before calling everything off cos i have too many infatuations, too many infatuations. explainations and reasons that you give me might be inane and really making no sense but i really hope that you'll come to your senses and not lie to me, if you are. i spilled out all the truth that i did behind your back when you werent ard and im sorry for kissing other guys. cos fact remains that i love you and you do too.

2 more days to the big Os.
go, my friends i love you all so very much :)