if i had continue disregarding & not trust you i doubt i'd ever love you as much as i do now. i'd never thought this would last till this very day & i thought to myself, just give it a few months before calling everything off cos i have too many infatuations, too many infatuations. explainations and reasons that you give me might be inane and really making no sense but i really hope that you'll come to your senses and not lie to me, if you are. i spilled out all the truth that i did behind your back when you werent ard and im sorry for kissing other guys. cos fact remains that i love you and you do too.

2 more days to the big Os.
go, my friends i love you all so very much :)